You thought

 "YOU THOUGHT WE HAD FORGOTTEN ABOUT YOU DIDN'T YOU? YOU ARE AND ALWAYS WILL BE A MEMBER OF THE SACRED ORDER. COME NOW, YOU FEEL US CALLING TO YOU. AND YOU KNOW THERE IS SOMETHING JUST OUT OF REACH BUT YOU CAN'T PUT YOUR FINGER ON IT. YOU EVEN CONSIDERED COMING TO THIS CONJURER AND ASKING HER WHAT IS GOING ON WITH YOU. THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU, YOU FEEL US CALLING YOU, THAT IS ALL. COME TO YOUR RIGHTS, COME TO THE FAMILIA"